Saturday

Here it is 2:30 Am and I am still up and with no interest in going to bed at the moment... we spent good part of the afternoon and evening at our friends Richard and Theresa's ... it was sunny, windy... then we had a great down pour for about 15 minute just enough to almost ruin dinner but it didn't... Richard and Carl did the beer drinking thing...we had a great dinner... they had mackrel with steak and salad I had steak ... and by midnight we were home once again .. he is sound asleep at the moment with the two dogs next to him... actually there is no room in the bed from me until I get he dogs off... I know I am going to be feeling this in the morning but then there is not a lot that has to be done tomorrow so why not pull a stupid thing off tonight...

Up date not saying how great I am but the little monsters are disappearing very quickly.... and more then I thought there was... but I am winning this fight thank you very much LOL...

Today was a lazy morning maybe that is why I am not sleepy at the moment... I actually pulled off a 10 AM sleep in today... then started our day with the market missing out on fresh eggs again this week... got dad down for his weeking wash down as Carl calls it... then off to see what kind of washer and drier Normand had in mind for us... it was pretty good because Monday afternoon it will be parked in my hall until Carl comes home to hook it all up and there will be no more running to dad's to do drying visa the drier or clothes line... I will be a very happy woman I have to say...

There is nothing all that wonderful going on... I did spend some time on the beach with my camera tonight and when I went looking at the pictures tonight after I was finished I realized that there is almost 400 photos on the camera... one of these days I will take them off maybe I should have not bought the 4 g memory card... I would take them off more often.... but then I am trying to see how many pictures a 4 g actually can hold... I know little things amaze me... but then if I was going out more often with my camera I would find out sooner he he...

Dad and I were suppose to be heading to Plaster Rock next week but Dad put it off until the Fall saying it was really too hot for travelling... so it will be the fall before we head that way... but I am still looking forward to a trip to see all my relations over that way.... and Jill is coming home in September and mentioned she would like to come so maybe we will wait.. I just think dad is not really crazy driving with me... but I am a great highway driver... really I am.. he he ...

Well think it is time for me to find something that will make me go to sleep... I do have a book somewhere in the house I started to read maybe that would do the trick... it usually does most time...

Have a good one all... Joanne

Jo Is On The Trail... Where Are You?

I am not a mean person... I have never wished deadly harm to any one or anything in my life... I have called some people names ... namely my brother Roger for the last 2 years but 99.99% of the time he is asking for it .. because he is what I say he is with me...

The last couple of weeks I have been actually doing spring cleaning in the house even though it is summer... it was not done.. and when something comes around after all my hard work and messes things up that is enough for me so tonight is the night... I am on the War Path....

Those who know me I have mentioned many times that I am here I have had unwanted visitors in the house.. the so call cute little kind... the ones that love cheese and peanut butter but they got smart and stopped coming to the traps so I went to something more serious the glue traps and let me tell you I have no sadness in my heart when I open a cupboard or a drawer and find one in the trap... in a bag and out in the garbage it goes... so don't bother with the ohhh poor little thing... I don't want to hear it... and yes I if I could find where they are coming in ... that would be the end of it.. but then I wouldn't be sitting here writing this tonight ...

So this week it was the kitchen I decided to clean the cupboards.. and since I am done with the large crowds at the house I actually decided to pack some of the much loved dishes from the cupboards into containers... leaving one set extra out instead of the 4 sets I have in the cupboards gathering dust and dirt and then I would have to clean them again next year or in 6 months when the mood hits me... but I went into the cupboard looking for flour one morning and discovered that the 4 legged monster had ate a hole through the bag... so out it went... the cupboard was a mess.. with all the flour and its waste... clean that up looked for the extra plastic containers.. and off I went ... then the next morning I went in and discovered that since the flour wasn't there for it to play with the night before it got into my cereal... so a slow burn started to show.. grrr my cereal the only one I have almost every morning... but no .. cleaned it up ... put a trap out and went on my way...

Yesterday morning I went in to get my cereal again that I actually was smart enough to put in a plastic container... and discovered that it was back that night and what a hell of a mess it made.... to a envelope of Side Kick... sooo I cleaned it up once again... moved everything into another cupboard thinking that it would be harder for it to get there... and went on my way until tonight... after dinner I put some broth from dinner on my glasses and I went to wash them... and went into the drawer to get a tea cloth.. my new ones that I really liked and discovered the little (not a nice name placed here) was in the drawer... actually I almost grabbed it... and no Yvette I didn't yell and jump on the chair because of it... a few more choice words came out of me and that was it .... it was either me or it.... I had picked the clothes to wash them and discovered it was tearing them apart to make a nest.... I don't think so

The last time I was out getting these traps I bought 4 boxes.. and each of them has 4 little traps in it and as of now there is 14 of them tucked around my kitchen... bedroom because Carl said it was near the garbage can last night... think it was the empty cheese stick bag I throw in yesterday from the dogs... and in the spare bedroom because it seems they love the bottom drawer of Great Nanny Melanson's Buffet... and all my table clothes which are at the moment in the washer... want to guess what is all over them...

I still like my Kraft dinner once in a while but this time I will not be eating it .. I went to each one of the traps and sprinkled a little cheese over each one... resist that one you little monster...

The next stop will be rat poison I am not playing around with these things any more... I don't mind animals in my house as long as they eat out of the appointed dishes... go out to do their business and stay out of my stuff....

I am sure Carl is going to have one heck of a good laugh when he comes in to see the red in my eyes and why it is there...

Off I go to finish up cleaning the cupboard once again and check the traps.. maybe I got lucky...

Happy trails guys... Joanne

A Busy LIttle Sunday

It has been bloody hot around this place and the only place I want to be is right here with my 2 A/Cs going keeping me cool and comfortable... but this afternoon Carl dragged me kicking and scream from here to go visit some friends at the beach... like that would be a cool place... in reality by the time we leave it was very much so... by the time we finished dinner the tide changed and so did the weather... it became windier and colder... to the point we actually talked about going into the trailer...

This morning he didn't have to say too much... when it came to going out for breakfast... the Atlantic host and Eggs Benedict here I come.... then off to Dad's for a while... in the line of who goes where Church I am third... Flo usually takes him but Pat will if she is around and if neither is around it is me... so this morning I had the pleasure of going to church with day ... a little visit to mom on the way home...

I also found out today that I have no allergies to bee stings.... I was driving with the window open and something I thought hit my hair... Carl said not but after dropping him off to pick up his jeep at dad's I was on my way home when something came a crawling on my shoulder and when I went to brush it away it stung me... darn those things hurt....

We also think that we have a lady to take the dogs... we have been looking for someone for a while now... I just don't think it is fair to them when I go out and they get put in their kennel... and they are there most of the day if I am gone most of the day and most days I still am... Linda a woman looking after Carl's parents has a mother who has one of them and it is dying... and is looking for another one to replace it... and asked if we knew any one with one... she said that she will take the two of ours... I know that they are going to a good home... and that makes me happy... they have been great company when I am home... but it seems I am not home all that much ... and when I want to go away for a few days I don't have any body to look after them...

Well I just got up for a bit and now it is going on an hour... so think it is time to head back.. have a good one all... Joanne

Mid week

Wednesday already... two more days Carl will be home for the weekend... now that is a nice thought...

They have been working on Dad's house this week... well last week as well but never mentioned anything about it... they painted three of the four bedrooms and the hall way ... something they were talking about for a while... then out came the forsaken rugs upstairs... they have almost three of the rooms done... only Pat's room and the hall ways to do...

April (if anyone didn't know is the lady that comes in 5 times a week for 3 hours with dad) and dad are still going out each and every morning ... Roger always makes sure there is something on a list to get while they are out... so he gets for his walk... which is helping him all so much... now saying he is going to do the one minute dash soon but he is moving more easily in his walker...

I finally finished up something for Roger today... when we were painting the porch I had a big WELCOME at th top of the window... and it had to come down... the only thing was that it was almost the same color as the porch so I was thinking of doing one in a differen color until Roger started calling the porch his offie... that is what I made... in plastic canvas... welcome to Roger's Office... looks kind of cute...

I found some yarn in my boxes some time back and thought of making some sweaters for Caleb... and I am almost finished the second one and working now on the third... they are larger sizes since he is leaving one size at a blink of an eye... so larger sizs from now on...

Anyone on facebook has read that at the end of the month Dad and I are going to Plaster Rock for a few days... He has been wanting to take this trip for some time... so I thought it would be nice to take it with him... it will also give me some alone time with him... since there is so little of it around the house... there is alwas someone around when I am there... or like this morning no one but workers... they were all out doing their own thing...

Peter and Pauline are in town for a few weeks... I see Peter the first part of his vacation but since Pauline has been here they have been travelling around the province doing their thing... and why not they are on vacation...

Well that is about it for tonight ... just a short one.. nothing really going on ... have a great one Joanne....

Dealing With The Last Month

Did I fall asleep and forgot to get up because tonight while I was sitting here doing my bills I realized that it is a month today that mom has been gone... In the last month I have seen her in the kitchen window I don't know how many times... as I came into the porch because most time that was where she was standing looking out watch us there... I miss getting a hug from her... but with that thought I also think how many time she would ask why so many kisses and hugs... and I would always answer that I needed to get lots of them stored up because if she goes away I will have them to keep me going for a little while... well sadly to say it didn't work...I believe that all those hugs and kisses were used up to get me through saying good bye to her...

I have places a photo of mom and dad on my desk top.. so each morning when I turn my computer on... they are the first I say good morning to and most nights to say good night too... Flo had taken one of mom after Dr Boucher removed skin cancer from her cheek that I loved... she sent it to me... that is on the wall next to the computer... then I have a frame with two smaller photos of mom and me and then one of Patsy Ann kissing Dad ...

I had to have some recent photos of mom and dad because the ones that were on the stairs were really old ones... I have gone through almost every photo I have here looking for pictures of mom... and most of them I have cried over and tried to remember why they were taken... more tears....

I pass the grave yard every day and the few times I have gone I have left red eyed and sadder then I was before going up.... so now I just pass the grave yard and give mom a little wave and I love you ...

I think of her every day... missing her every minute... wish that for a moment she was here... and then cry because of it....

I have survived the lose of my husband... I have survived the lose of my mother in law... and I know that I will survive this lose in time... but I am still counting the days that she has not been in my life... the moments I would think mom would have liked it or smile at the reaction to something that she didn't like...

The other night I went up to the house and sat in her chair almost half expecting her to come around the corner to claim it back.. but she didn't and as I drove home I thought of it again and walked into the house red eyed ... I am thankful for having a very understanding man in my life...

I wish a wish
that will never come true

I dream a dream
that is impossible...

I hope
knowing that all the hope
will give me no results

I still see you waiting there
I still hear your laughter
and see the tears...
I see your smile
and loving look
I feel your hands on my cheeks
or on my neck to warm them up
Your arms as they go around my neck
saying hello, I missed you, where have you been
why has it taken so long.

I see, I hear, I feel them all
but they are all from memory
no matter how much I wish,
no matter how much I dream
or hope or pray

You are so missed ...