Through My Eyes

Warning my heart is too full to leave it all bottled up....

In the last week I have been taking mom up to see dad at the hospital...(as well as Roger, Flo and Pat but I am going to talk about my trips).... it is always so cute to watch mom as she slows down just a little as she gets to the door of dad's room.... and peaks into the room to see if dad is sitting on the chair...before she walks in.... Dad's eyes lighting up when he sees her coming through the door as he watches her walk across the room to receive his hello kiss from her as she sits in the chair next to him....his big hand taking her ever so small one into his as he holds it and talks to her about her day before... how they look at each other knowing that each miss each other so much because they are apart... The little lean ins to say something private to each other trying not to let anyone else know ... mom smiling at something dad had said to her almost as if she was back in her teenage years....

A smile comes across my heart to know these two people who are so important in my life more now then they were when I was growing up... back then it was because I needed them for the basic things in my life... today it is because they are who they are that makes them so important... the way my mother makes me laugh over the silliest things... the loving feeling I get from her when she takes my face into those tiny hands.... dad's hugs... the loving look he gives each and everyone of us making us feel that we are the special one in his life next to mom....

I know that they are not going to be here forever... even though I could be the one that is gone tomorrow before them... but each day that we get to share is one more that I will hold in my heart to get me through the rough times when they are not here to help us...

So is any one wondering why this came about tonight .... I am sure someone is... I got a note tonight that Mama 2 from Thunder Bay had suffered a heart attack this week... she is doing okay at the moment... I called and talked to her for a few minutes tonight only to realize that even though she has not been in my personal live for several years my heart was still with her and Papa 2... They were the mom and dad I was missing so much when I was away from here...and of course I needed to write after all of that... so my head can be clear enough to go to bed and my eyes could water the first of my t-shirt I am wearing... I am an emotional fool at times... but I would rather be that then a cold hearted one that has nothing within herself...

Jo
P.S. When dad went to see the doctor about 10 days ago... he had gained more weight... I believed it was water and I think it was because yesterday when they weight him he was down 22 pounds... his legs today were not hard like steel... there was actually some give to them... they also gave him an ultra sound of his heart... I am not sure why that is and he didn't know as well... you know dad...he does as he is told when he is in the hospital... and rarely ask why... but he is looking a lot better... sounding a lot better in this breathing as well... so that is all good news... will keep you up to date as I get the news... Good Night...